Though I didn't want to, I finally did it. I had to leave you. It hurt me, but not as much as it hurt you. I know I made the right decision, but you don't think the same.
And it wasn't for Jesse. I've gotten over Jess. I know he's unobtainable. No, instead it's for my own right as a woman. I needed the space to flirt. I missed that most of all.
Ever since my poppa passed, I've been different. You seemed to not notice it, until I started mentioning that i didn't think we were 'right' anymore. You kept missing it, the 5 times i did it, and I seemed to blind-side you with it. You didn't get it. It hurt me to hurt you so much, but I knew that this was the right decision. I needed grade 12 to be myself. To be who i was before i knew you. I need grade 12 to be a fun-filled teen with no commitments but school and a pretend social life. I need grade 12 to become closer to Shelby and Shaun before i leave. I needed grade 12 to work myself as a person out, not you and I as a couple.
I'm sorry I did it, but that doesn't mean I'll take you back. We need to become better friends before I can do that. and I'm super sorry that's the case. I miss you. I always will. But for now, let's just stay friends and see where life takes us, alright/
And for now, I'll stay happy. I'll work through my mourning of my poppa, through our loss, and if I find a rebound, that's excellent. If you find a girl who takes your breath away, that's even better. Just remember, don't forget about what's in your own backyard. Because when one door closes, another one opens. We're just sometimes so busy staring at the closed door in longing, that we miss the light from the new one.
Remember to keep looking for the light - and don't wear those sunglasses. You're far too pretty.
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